oompa:
I believe you have posed for me a core issue of my discontent. I am possessed by something. JWs would say it is Satan. While I would agree that this uncontrolable force is demonic ... there may be another theory to examine.
What if there really exist spiritual forces battling for supremacy in the universe, playing in a ballpark to which flesh and blood are not admitted? What if individuals are but the prey for such a competition?
How would such a senario play out for the hunted?
Well, once one comes under the control of Demon A, for instance, there might appear to be relative "peace and security" (I'll bet you've heard that phrase before) This would be because a demon would protect what is their own.
Now, those earthlings who have decided NOt to turn their life over to ANY unseen force would't be much of a challenge for the demons since they offer no "trophy' opportunity for any spirit "contender." These too would have relative peace.
BUT ... for those who have committed to a force or are waffling and then attempt to somehow renege on their potential allegiance to that spirit ... WATCH OUT! It can become hell if a superhuman force gets into our head and we later attempt to alienate ourselves from them. It can become like a cat toying with a mouse that is trying to get away.
I believe many of us are here sharing our pain while attempting to exorcise such demons. I also believe it gets better when a person truly no longer cares about mentally ill spirits somewhere in the universe and tries to do their earthly best. When one takes the fun out of it, for the ghostly hunters, serenity is possible.
For those who believe the Bible we might cite James 4:7 "oppose the Devil and he will flee from you."
One final thought ... those who are still enslaved tend to hate any who become free ... count on it.